I know that God is here but I don't feel Him anymore

Well things have really changed since I have gotten back to the "burg" and school as started. I have changed my major after talking to a great friend(James Begley) over the summer. He told me that he believed in my and so have other since. I changed my major from Biblical Studies to Public Relations and I love my classes that are just what I was looking for thanks James.

Well you can see by the title that I am not struggling with classes but really the most important thing in life and that is Salvation. I know that I am a Christian and I know that I am saved and know Jesus as my personal Savior, but I don't feel Him anymore. I feel like I am in the desert or a better way of putting it I feel as if I am in Hell. I have been feeling this way for months, but here lately it has gotten worse. I have done things that are of this world and are not of God that is probably the reason. I have been thinking about things like that lately because if you were to look for m fruits I am not sure that you would see any.

I supposedly go to the most exciting Christian University in the world. I can say that there are times when it is exciting to be on campus here and that there are times when you have those wow moments but as a whole I feel as if the campus is changes and there is nothing to do to stop it. It is really sad when you see things that are not right and you bring it up to people and they say well policy is this or is that. I understand that a college needs to have sports,but when you hear more about the sporting events than you do about Jesus there is a problem. Also when classes are Cancelled for a game but when the spirit of the Lord is moving and you can feel it during a convo they will bring it to a stop when it is time to go to class. Also another thing that bothers me is why are we celebrateing Halloween I thought that we were a Christain school maybe I am wrong.

I came to LU because I wanted to get closer to God but I have gotten futher away and also brought brothers with me and that is not a Christain. I don't feel God any more but I know that He is there because He tells me He is. I have asked the Office of Student Leadership about maybe some one that could teach somethings and disciple me and Ias told since live off campus it was the Churches responceablity to do that. I have also been trying to give back by teaching a Bible study and have been told because of my past that I couldn't. I have tried to talk to Campus Pastor and have been told that they don't have time for me and as a commuter I want talk to me to go to the church that I am attenting and I only have been going to Campus church and the pastor is Johnnie Moorie, but he doesn't have time to talk to people.

I know what my problem is. It is not the Lord He as not changed it is the church that I don't like. I feel so far away from God because I am not going to church on top of everything else that is going on in my life. The problem is that I can't find any really good Bible Preaching churches instead of this feel good gospel. If I wanted to feel good I would go to the spa or something. I need to know what my Lord is saying and getting my toes stepped on. I know that it may not make sense to you but I need to hear what the Lord is saying not what you think He is saying and and how to feel good about myself and if I give the Lord 2,000 He will give me a new BMW, house and I will win the lottery. The only thing that I know for sure if that I have got to be able to feel the Lords presents with me. I would also like to see LU come back to the Lord we as a school fast to past judgment on others when we have a pluck in our eyes.

LORD I LOVE YOU AND MISS SPENDING TIME WITH YOU. YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE AND I LONG FOR YOU MORE NOW THAN ANYTIME BEFORE. PLEASE FORGIVE US LORD AND ALLOW US AS A SCHOOL TO COME BACK TO YOU. AGAIN I LOVE YOU LORD AND THANK YOU FOR THE BROTHERS YOU HAVE PLACED IN MY LIFE. ILOVE THEM LORD AND ASK YOU TO BLESS THEM LIKE NOTHING BEFORE.